April 05, 2007 at 05:34 PM EDT
Sorry I haven't written in a few days, each day just seems to get worse than the other lately and it is really tearing me down physically as well as mentally. I keep getting these unexplained fevers and the doctors have no idea where they are coming from. The most frustrating part is that my counts are so good, I could go home tomorrow! But, of course, not with a fever. So we wait it out and send me for CT scans, MRI's, chest x-ray's, etc...and still no results. I am also starting to get a little GvHd on my hands and feet which can be controlled with steroids, but who wants to be on those? I am just trying so hard to stay positive and still exercise like I am supposed to. What makes this so hard is that I guess I really wasn't anticipating any setbacks because I was doing soo well. Oh well, I just have to cheer up and take it one day at a time.